Do you have recurring dreams? Do you remember them and consider their meaning? What do you think, are they trying to convey a message?
I am the one always trying to remember my dreams, write them down, figure them out, cast light on the bigger picture in their sequence. (I’m actually the weirdo that at times thinks during the very dream “Oh my God, remember this, remember this, this is important!!”)
I have found that writing dreams down helps me remember more of them in the future, which overall makes me understand my psyche better.
One of the recurring dreams in my life in the last 13 years has been a dream of my late dog Sani. These dreams have not been particularly frequent, but very constant throughout the years. Every time in my dream Sani has been either sick or dying (the dreams started after his actual death), every time the fear of loss was the dominant emotion.
Even though I was really attached to my dog, frequently worried about him while he was alive and sincerely sad when he died, I stopped thinking about him a long time ago. Well, at least while I am awake. He always knows to find the way to my dreams.
Last night, however, the dream changed. There was no fear or worry. There was my Sani, lively and happy to see me, and another Sani, sleepy on the sofa, ready to fall asleep or die. I was caressing both of them, knowing that it was alright, that he could be lively only when I was asleep, and dead when I was awake. It made perfect sense with both of them there, a complete cycle of life, and me, peaceful and calm with all that this cycle entails.
After all these years of dreaming the same dream, this change in the dream dynamics assured me that deep down in my soul some pieces are finally coming together. Whatever it is that my pekingese represented, and I guess there are many layers of meaning, it seems to be coming to wholeness.
If you, fellow readers/writers, have relevant experience with dreams, I would be happy to hear about them in the comment section. ☺️